things are finally back to normal (somewhat) at work-- thank GOD! I don't know how much longer i could stand the "holiday slowdown"

the ex came over for a visit last night. i'm not sure if it's a good thing that we're staying such good friends. it really makes get-togethers like last night... i don't know... bitterseet, in a way... i mean, i enjoy her company, and we always have a good time, but-- then it kinda sucks, you know...

i think for the first month or so after we broke up i had these secret hopes that she'd "come to her senses" and want to get back together. but i guess i always knew deep down that her decision would be forever... it's just such a sad, harsh realization.